LIFE

Life

Once I realized life is all about living and thanksgiving to the almighty and not to be wasted away pining for things most often you don’t get, regretting about unreciprocated love, friendship misunderstood, not being liked etc. etc   I came out of my cocoon stage armed with love, love, love, love only for all things animate and inanimate And life became one of giving, giving, giving, only  and never worrying about not getting anything in return.  My personal grievances if ever they emerged were ardently laid at the feet of My Lord, my friend   who never failed me. And life all of a sudden became rich and rainbow coloured. And  I started blooming. 

                    It was like observing things for the first time. I saw, I heard, I felt, I tasted and I smelled the essence of life around me. For the first time I started living vibrantly, looking only for the element of divinity in others and what kept them ticking. I saw no evil; if at all I perceived negativity, I ignored it and hoped for the best. I went closer to Nature. 

                         Trees, once a childhood passion, are   now   my next of kin. The wild trees I have planted around my home are loved and cherished passionately. The breadfruit tree, whose branches rest on my rooftop was often mercilessly pruned, out of respect for the voice of prudence around me. But it hurt me when her life sap oozed out. I would talk to her and console her empathizing with her and begging her to forgive me. And she does forgive me by bearing a few fruits every year on that part of the terrace where I can pick without any one’s aid.

             I planted the egg fruit tree, the mango trees, the chikkoo tree, the mulberry bush   and many other plants for the birds and the squirrels. And they are there from morn till even. Their chirping and twittering are music to my ears. I often call out to them and invite them to feed on the rice grains or bread crumbs I scatter for them. No wonder they come searching for me, especially my black and white robin, my wild friend who comes to my kitchen window everyday without fail. He is a wonder to everyone. He comes right into my kitchen or dining room as if searching for me. One day my husband found him perched on my bedroom window bars as I was praying.

               What more did I need? I learned love was the answer. Every thing around us responds to the vibration of love in whatever way it is expressed. I learned the great truth of unconditional love. Never again, I decided, would I despair of unreciprocated love. I found joy in giving love and that sufficed and it drew me closer to my Almighty.

                                    And in my human relationships too I found changes. I started accepting people with all their faults, stopped being judgmental, and just let them be. For I had learned that I receive only what I send out. If I send out love I get back love, if I send out a positive prayer I get back a positive prayer. So life has become easier for me. Nothing matters any more only living joyfully and thankfully to God, counting the in-numerous blessings that come my way even without asking.